Shutting Down

This blog will be shut down soon.

The hard truth is this:

For eleven years, I was abused by my husband and by the church. About four years ago, I wholly stepped out of the community and religion. I still hold to a belief of God, but not the way the Christians do.

After many, many years of suffering at the hands of a man who repeatedly harassed, belittled, insulted, and demanded I do as he says, I begged God for a way out and he provided. My eyes are opened and I can see how much of my experiences I spoke of here on this blog were for a purpose--not some curse or harassment from "Satan."
In the end, it was members of the church who slit my tires before a big road trip. It was members of the church who broke into my home and had me stalked through grocery stores. That wasn't "Satan." That was man who uses God as a weapon and as a crutch.

Thank you for supporting me in my time here. I am thankful, but I continually receive emails from Christians asking me for advice and I no longer consider myself of that label. I do not think I can offer the help and advice people are looking for. The Bible was the one weapon used against me with twisted scriptures and unreal, dangerous expectations from the church and I am officially done. I have a lot of emotional, mental, and spiritual healing to do after what I have been indoctrinated with.

I want to leave you with this:
Protect your children. Protect them from the indoctrination that will tell your girls to get married young and strive only for serving the men in their lives. Protect your boys from the belief that women are lesser beings who do not need hobbies or an education. Teach them to respect the women in their lives, and teach your girls to have a voice. Teach your children that personality is something to take pride in. Teach them that it's all right for them to have likes and dislikes, and that they don't always have to conform to a single society's ideals.
Sports are wonderful.
Reading is wonderful.
No one has to like one or the other. Or either, for that matter.
Protect your girls from feeling ashamed of their body just because they're born female.
Protect your boys from thinking they will become weak at the sight of a woman's body.
Protect children with free spirits.
Protect children who are quiet and reserved.
But most importantly, make sure your children feel protected. Never let them feel afraid to speak up. Never let them be afraid to ask questions or share what's on their mind and heart.

God can be wonderful for children to have in their heart, but their idea of who God is must be protected.

Vision

An Exploding Empath

It's been a long time again. I've had 2 kids since my last post and do you know what I've realized? My mind blocks with every pregnancy. My empathy, my dreams, my spiritual openness is gone. It comes back eventually after a couple of years but until it does, I feel like an empty shell.

Lately though...
I've been feeling things. I've been picking up on my kids' headaches, pain from boob-boo's, etc. I've been restless the last few weeks and have had no appetite. Today, I've been filled with a building sense of some sort of power - like I'm going to explode with some form of energy. Nothings happened yet, obviously, but I feel so vulnerable. I don't know what to do to make myself feel better.

I don't know how to explain it but the  most interesting part? I've finally had a chance and the desire to sit and read my Bible again recently...that desire is rarely there just after having kids...until the "abilities" come back and now, since I've been trying to come closer to God again, my openness is starting to come back.

I feel like God allows this so that I can put the stress of these things on the back-burner until I'm passed the sleepless nights of nursing and baby colic. Now that said things have passed, it's like God's giving it back again.

So, this may be the first of many new posts to come.

I've been answering emails so feel free to shoot me a message if you need to talk.

-Vision
vision_seer@yahoo.com

p.s.
I'm aware this was not much of a post but more of a vent...I don't know what to do right now. I'm in a pretty dark place.

The Spiritual Plane

Something must be going on lately as suicide stories keep coming to me. (on the positive side, they're all stories that ended in the person not managing to actually kill him/herself.)

The moment I heard about the 2nd story of the day, an image of a street crowded with people came to my mind. Nearly all of them - nearly - had a dark spirit whispering in their ear. This image reminded me of my first day of 7th grade. I'd walked onto campus a frail, unimpressive little twelve year old but immediately was met with what I knew shouldn't have been surprising...

every student in the main courtyard, the main area where they gathered before the bell rang, had a dark spirit whispering in their ear. What they were being told, I of course could only imagine, for dark spirits' whispers can be translated into words, actions and thoughts.

It's a demon that whispers in a smoker's ear, "you need a smoke. You need to feel that deception fill your lungs." It's a demon that whispers in a person's ear, "swear. You need to speak in a vulgar manner to fit in. To look good." And it's a demon that whispers in a sad person's ear, "life is not worth it. Take it away and only peace will come."
Sadly, people have recently been trusting and believing the voice of demons that sound so sweet and tempting.

The suicide stories today have reminded me of the spiritual plane. The dimension in our existence that  none can even imagine is there, simply because it's unseen. But it is there and it's as real as the air we breathe. If only God would give more people the sight - as terrifying as it is - to see and understand the existence of the spiritual plane. It's that part of the world that ours depends on. It's that part of the world that drives what we do...and so few know about it. And even fewer can see it.

Update 1.3.12

Hello everyone.
I hope you've all had a very merry Christmas and a happy new year!

I know it's been some time since my last post but so much has been happening. I was hospitalized for two weeks due to illness, then I had to catch up for my finals (I am in college). After that, I had some excitement in the writing side of things with a published book, and of course, the holidays came and sucked out all of my time.

Within all the excitement and busy times, I also underwent another bout of nightmares. This one lasted one week with every night full of black creatures/silhouettes coming after me and/or my children. One night was an actual night terror which was just horrible to deal with. It haunted me for about three days after.

The mares and terrors passed but have left me wondering if something is going to happen. If something is going to change. I haven't noticed anything different yet but I am keeping my eyes open.

I could use some help in prayer, if you would. My prophetic dreams have come to a standstill and that in itself makes me feel a little uncomfortable but I know there is a reason and that in the end, all will be fine.

Thank you for keeping up with this blog and for your comments. They are as encouraging to me as they have been to you.

God bless!
Vision

Empaths

There's been a change in my mentality about the term, "Empath." I guess it's just been something on my mind lately and I feel as if God has kind of spoken to me about this.

What's changed is this: I'm beginning to feel that labeling ourselves (by "ourselves" I mean we who call ourselves empaths...highly sensitive people), we are pointing believers who are confused and looking for answers, in the wrong direction. When someone types in the word "Empath" in a search engine, the seeker is typically directed to sites about psychics or spiritualists...those who God tells us not to deal with.

"Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God" (Gal. 5:19-21).


So, in my website and on my blog, I will try to lean away from the word unless the situation calls for it - and even then, I will make it known that I don't label myself with the spiritualists. In all honesty, we need to remain tied to God's word and the names He gives us. Children of God. Brothers in Christ. Prophet or prophetesses - if appropriate.


Just my two cents. God bless you all!


Vision


P.S.
Please pray for me. A month has passed with every night full of bad dreams. It's difficult but I know God has a plan.

Going and Going

It's been three weeks now since I began counting.

Three weeks ago, a string of bad dreams began and are still going strong through this night that just passed. Either someone is "looking in on me" - as in, doing readings or searching for information on me through occult divinations - or demons are hanging around again.

If it's the first thing - someone looking in on me - please stop. I'd like a peaceful night sometime soon.

Vision

New Site

I've created a website to reach out to Christian empaths and all those who are a bit confused with what empathy is and what God expects from us as empaths. Please take a look and let me know what you think!

http://wix.com/vision_seer/christiansandpsychics

p.s.
there is background music. It's piano and pretty soft...unless your volume is up.

p.p.s.
please leave a comment on the comments page! what do you think about the site? ^_^ thanks!