This blog will be shut down soon.
The hard truth is this:
For eleven years, I was abused by my husband and by the church. About four years ago, I wholly stepped out of the community and religion. I still hold to a belief of God, but not the way the Christians do.
After many, many years of suffering at the hands of a man who repeatedly harassed, belittled, insulted, and demanded I do as he says, I begged God for a way out and he provided. My eyes are opened and I can see how much of my experiences I spoke of here on this blog were for a purpose--not some curse or harassment from "Satan."
In the end, it was members of the church who slit my tires before a big road trip. It was members of the church who broke into my home and had me stalked through grocery stores. That wasn't "Satan." That was man who uses God as a weapon and as a crutch.
Thank you for supporting me in my time here. I am thankful, but I continually receive emails from Christians asking me for advice and I no longer consider myself of that label. I do not think I can offer the help and advice people are looking for. The Bible was the one weapon used against me with twisted scriptures and unreal, dangerous expectations from the church and I am officially done. I have a lot of emotional, mental, and spiritual healing to do after what I have been indoctrinated with.
I want to leave you with this:
Protect your children. Protect them from the indoctrination that will tell your girls to get married young and strive only for serving the men in their lives. Protect your boys from the belief that women are lesser beings who do not need hobbies or an education. Teach them to respect the women in their lives, and teach your girls to have a voice. Teach your children that personality is something to take pride in. Teach them that it's all right for them to have likes and dislikes, and that they don't always have to conform to a single society's ideals.
Sports are wonderful.
Reading is wonderful.
No one has to like one or the other. Or either, for that matter.
Protect your girls from feeling ashamed of their body just because they're born female.
Protect your boys from thinking they will become weak at the sight of a woman's body.
Protect children with free spirits.
Protect children who are quiet and reserved.
But most importantly, make sure your children feel protected. Never let them feel afraid to speak up. Never let them be afraid to ask questions or share what's on their mind and heart.
God can be wonderful for children to have in their heart, but their idea of who God is must be protected.
Vision
Oh that is so painful to hear... I hope you do not give up, on Christ, because of an abusive church. I have seen so much abuse in church and it is horrible, and betrayal from those whom we have trusted, but the truth is noone can be fully trusted however christian they say they are, as all of us are sinners and decieved in many ways. i feel for you as I have been trough this in other ways, my parents are missionaries and my husband although a believer is also only part way on the path to knowing God. christ is our true lover and saviour and the only one we can trust with our lives and hearts, never let go of that. all those who find christ are on a journey, ans we should relate to them as such, never let them abuse us as if they were God. Yes we must protect our children, and also ourselves, but the greatest protection is in the father's arms. I have very very mixed feelings about church... it is not all bad, but there is a lot of bad. Stay away from those who hurt you but we cannot walk this path of life alone, ask god for christians to walk with who will help and bless you. in my walk, afer years god healed me and brought me back to the people who hurt me, because i needed to forgive. it has been a long road but the path of love is the only one, just we cannot do it alone, only with the holyspirit to comfort guide and protect us. I wish you well and pray God will help you always. I just found this blog and it has been helpful to me, thank you for sharing some of your life story I like many others are grateful, You have been a blessing through it and I am sure you will be safe, Jesus loves his lambs and gave his life to save us from wolves his love is fierce and protective he will watch over you. All the best, Rachel
ReplyDeleteDear Friend,
ReplyDeletePlease do not give up on the true church of Jesus Christ. I want to recommend sermons and teaching from my favorite online preacher, pastor Darrell Ferguson, at https://foodforyoursoul.net/. Consider the sermon series at https://foodforyoursoul.net/sermon/category-view/?CAT=r. Begin with #51, #52, #53 on the Life of Jesus and allow yourself to fall in love with Him again. He is the way, the truth and the life and no one comes to the Father except through him (John 14:6). Then try Basics of the Christian Life, Biblical Counseling and other topics of interest. I am currently enjoying sermons from series #25 through 29 on the life of David who is worth studying and emulating in the ways that he was "a man after God's own heart". Sincerely, David Dawson. daviddawson631@gmail.com