Saturday, January 30, 2010

It's a snowy, saturday morning and I should be enjoying it. I seem to have a problem though. Let me start from Thursday night.

I was at church and we were praying. The Holy Spirit came down on the church and many were speaking in tongues while a woman prophecied. Another girl my age had a vision for the church and I had a vision for a relative. It happened while I prayed for her(she's having some problems).

The vision was this:
There was a field with a tar pit in it. My relative stood in the tar pit and there was tar smeared over her eyes, keeping them closed; blinding her. Noticing someone over her shoulder, I looked and saw another person I know. I won't go into details there because I already shared this vision with that person.

I feel compelled to share this vision with my relative. Though I have the basic idea of what it means, I'm not sure how she'll take it. We were so close at a time and now we hardly speak. To make things worse, I had a dream last night that I shared the vision with her and she became angry and shouted and told me she didn't believe in God anymore. I fear for her, because that vision was a bad omen. I'm afraid of what will come to her if she doesn't change and return to previous state (before all the problems started).

Remember when I posted the fact that the demons try to stop me from doing certain things? This is one of those things. When I think about speaking to my relative about it, I get shaky and scared. Nervous and anxious. My hands tremble, my words twist and I can't speak clearly. I will share my vision with her though, out of fear for her well being and even her life.

God, speaking what I feel needs to be said is so hard sometimes...but seeing how I'm being affected by it confirms the fact that it needs to be said..whether she hates me in the end or not.

I'll try to write more on my testimony in a few moments.
I just needed to get this out.


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Empath Talk

Alright readers,

Again, I'm steering from the testimony for a bit. I want to elaborate on the empath thing. As you all know, I am an empath. It simply means that when an angry person is near me, I can feel it. If someone is depressed, I know without them having to tell me. I'm highly sensitive to other people's emotions. I know when someone doesnt like me. I know a person's personality and whether or not I should get to know them before I speak to them. It's nothing that "came with practice." It's just always been there.

Now, I am a member of an online empath community where I can meet and talk with other empaths and share experiences or even reach out to those who need help. As a christian, this is a great opporunity to talk to other christian empaths who dont realize where the line not to be crossed is drawn.

For christians, empathy is a very thin and highly dangerous line to be walked. VERY thin. As a highly sensitive person, an empath is prone to dark-spirited influence. They are the ones that make it possible for empaths to carry other abilities; psychic abilties. As christians, we all know that this is against our beliefs. God does not accept psychics, mediums, spiritists, etc. Empathy in itself, as far as I know, is not a psychic ability. It is a sensitivity to other living things but it, more often than not, turns into contacting spirits, remote viewing, etc. That is why, as christians it is such a hard thing to deal with. We dont know when its too much.

Okay, let me get this part off my chest. I am no preacher. I dont have all the right answers. Shoot, I even doubt myself on the whole empathy thing pretty often. I'm afraid of doing something evil and wrong but the thing is that i've dealt with demons and the like since I was a little girl. I was a witch for much of my life (which, yes, i realize, isnt all that long so far). I'm just passing through a trial that involved me obtaining a number of new, psychic abilities and God had mercy on me, answering my prayers and taking away what was not from him. But the empathy is still there. My dreams are still there and I feel much lighter and safer. I cannot turn off empathy. It's not in my control at all times. Until God takes it away, I have to believe that He answered my prayers in full and not in pieces and that what is left in me is from Him to be used for His glory and His alone.
When I turned my back on witchcraft, all of the "friendly" spirits that I was in contact with turned their backs on me and attacked my family. They nearly tore us apart but again, God had mercy and saved me from ruining my life; from ruining my chance to be with Him when my job is done on this earth.
I've been trying to ignore my empathic abilty but like I said, it can't simply be turned off.

I really hope this post helped someone out there. I may add more later but it's real late for me and I am EXHAUSTED! Good night, all! And God bless!


Tuesday, January 5, 2010


Hey everyone,
I'm going to steer from my testimony for a moment and share some thoughts. I know that there are so many people out there that want to be a part of the paranormal and supernatural. There are a lot of christians as well but what they don't know is that through a life in Christ, they can have a supernatural experience. When one is filled with the Holy Spirit, God grants a spiritual gift to that person. It can be a supernatural ability of knowledge, discernment, healing, speaking in tongues, faith or prophecy. Each one of these is a special ability; an ability from the Spirit, only, it's used for God's glory. If you live your life according to God's word and will, you will receive a spiritual gift to use.

I've recently come across the shows "Paranormal State" and "Psychic Kids." My opinion on them? They're all insane! First off, "Paranormal State;" These people are teenagers who go to haunted houses or to demon possessed people and try to find proof of the paranormal there. Who in the right mind would want to go to an exorcism or contact spirits in a house without being annointed for it? They are taking these spirits with them that will effect them, their family and their friends. It's extremely dangerous and here they are doing in on television, placing the seed of curiousity in the minds of even younger generations.
As if that's not bad enough, you have the show called "Psychic Kids" that's about older, experienced psychics "helping" kids who have psychic abilities. They have no idea what they're in for. They're putting these kids at risk of giving their lives to the spirits around them; to obsess and walk down the darker path of life. I know I'll be praying for those kids and people to get over their addictions to the spirit world and turn their lives to God.
One thing that many don't realize is that demons are extremely intelligent. They know how to work in a person's life to make things seem innocent and safe. They know what thoughts to whisper to a person to make them think they're doing the right thing by using a "Gift." But people dont realize the "gift" is from the demon(s).
Anyone dealing with "kind" spirits or "neutral" spirits, I'd like you to test this theory for yourself. Turn from the spirits and put them aside. Go to church and read the Bible and do something for God. I promise you that those spirits will turn on you. They won't be so kind and gentle and neutral anymore. The thing is that there are no "kind spirits" but only deceptive demons that clothe themselves in sheep-skin. They are there only to keep you on the wrong path; only to confuse you. There is the Holy Spirit and angels, then there are demons. There is no middle-ground in the spirit world. If you are not for God, you are against Him.
He who is not with me, is against me, and he who does not gather with me, scatters. Luke 11:23

Monday, January 4, 2010

Part III


After that experience, I stayed pretty far away from the occult. The demons with me wouldn't let me go that easily, though...of course. They got me pretty bad after I got married. If they couldn't take me down through my curiosity and supernatural abilities, they went after something even more important to me; my family. My relationship with my husband. After about 3 and a half years, we nearly divorced. In short, my mind and emotions were attacked, making me stop loving him and seeking attention elsewhere. I became addicted to an online game called Second Life. (now, I'm not saying that everything was my fault, but that's not the point here. I'm trying to prove something that many people do not know.)
All through our troubles, I had that familiar voice in the back of my mind telling me that divorce is not what God wants from us. He put us together, he blessed us enormously and never planned for us to separate. No couple brought together before God, is meant to divorce. No one. I didn't love my husband anymore. I didn't care what happened to him. I wanted to go out and do stupid things. But, that voice was a voice I knew so against everything my heart and mind told me, I continuously prayed, "God, you know my heart. You know how I'm feeling right now but I don't want to sin. I pray that you help me want the right thing, because I have no idea what it is." I prayed that while I was angry and hateful towards my husband and while I spent all my time on the game. It was one night that changed me; one dream. I dreamed that an angel stood before me and said to me, "you need to stop what you're doing...before it's too late." It wasn't just the fact of what was said but of what I felt when I woke up. I was filled with shame and guilt. It was the exact feeling of being scolded by your parents after doing something wrong. It was such a strong feeling that it couldn't be ignored.
My husband and I ended up having a very serious talk and we both changed our ways. Over time, the unthinkable happened. I fell in love with him again. With everything I had, I didn't believe it could happen, but God worked in my life and He made it happen. My husband and I are now doing well and we're very happy.

You would think that's the end, huh? Well, these demons will not let up. I don't know what it is that makes them work so hard at tearing me down but they will not let up! When things began working out in my family, my mind turned to the church and what I was called to do. Almost immediately after that thought, my visions began coming back only this time, I had one of a friend that passed years ago, making me wonder if there was anything christian about that. My mind was suddenly thrown into this frenzy, bringing all sorts of other gifts along with the ones I already knew about. Very slowly, my mind turned back to the occult. I was suddenly able to read people's chakras and scry and my visions went insane. I would have visions of people I've never met before, showing me that they were going to die soon, then I would see them the next day in person. I physically feel my 3rd eye, especially when in church, to the point where I have to rub my forehead to sooth the feeling of something boring into my head. I feel EVERYTHING from people who are thinking about me to spirits around me. I see random visions of people in the near future as well as the distant future.
The thing is though, that I don't try to bring these things on; they just happen. In all honesty, though I used to be one of those teens who dreamed of being something different and special, I'm more concerned for my soul. I've had a vague vision of Hell, and as vague as it was, it's enough to scare me into behaving and focusing my mind on what God wants for me.

I'll have to continue this later...sorry, readers!